Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Mental Sums...

Heads up, the end of the year is fast approaching and so... its time to start thinking of another resolution for the new year that I'll probably not follow anyway.

Nah. Planning for the future is quite pointless right now. Instead, I shall look back on the past festive season and... do my maths. X-mas is over, and I'm not expecting *and not hoping for* any more surprises in the new yr. So, as it stands now, I've gotten the following as presents (x-mas, bdays, whatever):

1 very colourful PURPLE T-shirt *thanks you ladies and gentleman...*
1 very PINK t-shirt *to the same bunch of people...*
1 black with gold-printed GUYS NIGHT OUT t-shirt *company xmas exchange, don't knw what to say to this really...*
RHS vouchers *tks*
1 revoltech Gurren Lagann *loves it, thanks a lot =)*
1 handphone strap *well...*
1 copy of ImagineFX *omg... never thought I'd get something like this for gift exchange, awesome shit*
1 imitation Liverpool Jersey *oh well... lolz, tks I guess, haha*

Not too bad a haul, some pleasant surprises, some... pretty orz presents, la la.

I've way overspent again. Just did my sums for Oct - December. Including household expenses, I've spent a grand total of approx 4k in 3 mths. Horrible, horrible. I shall have to hibernate, scrimp and save for the next few mths, esp if I do go for the scuba licence.

And I've come to a decision, finally. Yep, enough is enough. Sometimes, hanging in there just makes you look like an even bigger loser. When all else fails, I have my sisters, my sister's mum (LOL, you know who you are), my friends. When even that fails..... I have despair.com to let me laugh it off.

Almost becoming a drama addict. So I guess, not much art update for the time being. There's a niggling suspicion that I might not survive my probation *probably another case of hypersensitive paranoia* but we'll tackle that if it happens. IF.

Lastly, some interesting stuff happening over at the zupids. Link on the right. Actually, we're expecting some interesting stuff to happen that is supposed to have happened already....

Sunday, December 7, 2008

A little update on life v0.002

Test, test. Ok.

Its been about 2 weeks. 2 uneventful weeks. Wouldn't even have realised that 2 weeks had passed, if I didn't bother checking the dates. Anyway...

Collected my first paycheque frm current workplace. December hadn't started, and I've basically spent my December budget. Happy happy joy joy.

27th Nov. My birthday came and went. Got bday smses, facebook msgs, msn msgs. My current colleagues gave me a surprise birthday celebration in the office. Went through the motions. I wonder what their response would have been like if I had told them "I stopped celebrating my birthday 12 yrs ago." Maybe I'll try that next year.

Same day, dinner at NYNY @ AMK Hub. Got a pleasant surprise frm the bunch. I love the shirts (ok the pink one is a bit too big, and needs some getting used to I guess...) but yeah. Love it. Thanks for everything XD

29th Nov. Kbox session + bday celebration. Kind of. Kbox, followed by window shopping for a couple of hours, followed by lunch/dessert session at NYDC. The mudpie was awesome. Wush, pass me the photo of my mudpie please. I want to relive the taste of it. In the process of it all I quietly came to a decision. And, I'd like to say thanks to the organiser. Really appreciate the effort for everything =)

That was followed by my mum's bday celebration, which was utterly... spoilt. Utterly, totally spoilt only because some smart ass decided to ask his friends to come along for a drink and swearing session that was totally unwelcome, decided on all our behalfs to go to a restaurant no one really wants to go to *despite us making plans to go somewhere else*, and force beer down my throat when I wasn't in the mood to drink.

"Eh, you want to drink beer?"
"Nevermind just serve him beer."

All the while my mum had this black face that he was totally oblivious to. Overall, a BAD day.

1 Dec. Had a much happier "celebration" at Brussels Sprouts with Donna, Len, Wush and... JIM. Yesh the phantom crawled out of her tomb! Wow, wasn't expecting her to turn up, honestly, but yeah, greatly appreciated. Donna, you look great, so forget the diet plan already. If any guy minds, just tell him to take it or fuck off. And to whom it may concern, we'll find you a nice boy, no worries abt it. Just... find me a nice girl in return. wahahahahah XD

4 Dec. WQ's long awaited wedding. It was really... a night to remember. Its amazing how long they've been together (3300++ days... omg) and even more amazing, how much they're still in love after so long. The wedding itself was beautiful: the lighting was perfect romantic, the food good; the company a blast. As Kenneth says, one of the best he's attended. I totally agree. Now we await the arrival of Audrey/WQ jr. Audrey's husband, get to work already.

I think I should paint something happy to brighten my life up a little. Oh yes, X mas is coming no? Then again, the painting mood has eluded me. Probably gonna take a while to get it back.

Now let me try to get into a festive mood, while I think of what presents to get for people. weee~

Sunday, November 23, 2008

A little update on life...

As the title says. Quite a bit has happened since I last posted. In a nutshell...

1. I started work.

2. I decided to eat in during lunch time. Always. It shall stay that way. Unless I'm asked out.

3. A certain lady asked me out for lunch for reasons that... i found quite strange. She was pretty in a black long sleeved top, but what we talked about... was far from pretty. *lol* Had a long chat, thought of some things while chatting, told her somethings that i wanted to keep to myself, overshot my lunch hour, yadda yadda. Agreed on somethings with her, hope she remembers.

4. Had lunch with my bunneh sistah at this cafe in OG Bugis. Interesting place that, I commented, would be nice for a night date.

5. Was asked to help out with WQ's wedding videos.

6. Attended my cousins' belated wedding dinner, and had a good bonding session with my niece in the process. Yesh, the same niece who whacked my head with a Rubix cube during CNY. Ah well, nvm. She's so adorable I'll forgive her for anything.

7. Company lunch @ Sakuran Orchard.

8. Anime Fest Asia, day 1. Lunch @ Kuishinbo before heading down to the event. Honestly, a bit of a letdown. Was expecting much more, though the Sky Crawlers trailers had me licking my lips. Some of the Gundam dioramas were pretty impressive as well.

9. Anime Fest Asia, day 2. Went to Kino before that and burnt all $100 worth of my Kino vouchers. May'n's concert was a blast. Finally, something happened this month that wasn't a disappointment: she was as good a live performer as I expected, even better. Regret not getting a VIP pass. The seminar by the Studio 4C prj manager *can't remember her name... blehz* was also very enlightening. Its a pity that, to me at least, I don't believe Studio 4C's idealogies can work in profit oriented (and nothing else) SG.

10. Also met that certain lady who asked me out for lunch earlier in the mth. And I noticed that she was wearing the same long sleeved black top she did when she met me for lunch. *yes I notice petty details like that* So we watched May'n together, the bunch of us. For the 2nd time, we watched a concert together. I wonder if she realised that.

The month simply zipped past. So fast, its unreal. There's also this overwhelming desire to detach myself frm everything, everyone. Feels like too much of a chore. Ghosts of the past keep returning to haunt me. One morning, during breakfast, right after the wedding dinner, I had to resist the urge to scream at my mum and brother. Pls, just stop talking about it. You don't know a thing; I do. Don't make it worse for me.

Been playing the new OO opening on loop for the past couple of days. *"Because love always hurt me..." you whispered.* Loving it. Its amazing how you can hide such sad lyrics in such a happening rhythm and beat.

I've way overspent. Now I shall start counting down to payday *whistles~~~*.

Sunday, November 2, 2008

Its a little late...

for Halloween, I know. And its 0230. yawn.

(edited, edited. I think this is complete.)


Daikon: Pumpkin... thanks for being with me this Halloween...

Pumpkin: Dumbass, do you really think I wanna be stuck here with u?

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Project Zoopid, entry 2

With a new signature. lol.

not really sure what else to do with it so I'll leave it as it is for now.

On to the next card.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

30 minute quickie

As it says. Quick paint while waiting for the liverpool portsmouth game. Random cyborg girl... not sure if I'll be doing anymore to her. Like the way she looks right now. hur hur

Project Zoopid, entry 1

Today I walked frm Sim Lim Tower to Takashimaya. Again. Wasn't too long ago that I walked the same route actually. So why did I do it again? Well.. came across some rant on theonlinecitizen abt the state of Singapore's iconic shopping paradise (never bought that notion btw.. Orchard to me was just another place I didn't belong to), and so I decided to walk down again and take another look. It was warm, sunny, but best of all, there was a nice breeze all the time. So I strolled. Walked. Took in what I could. At the end of it all, there were several things I noticed:

1. There's a lot of god damned construction going on. All retail space. Do we really have that much money to spend on building retail malls that are only going to makes us spend more of our lesser monies?

2. Its a mess. Probably due to all the construction at the same time, which brings me to the next thing...

3. Why is everything being built at the same time? Is all this construction generating 50k jobs for our expanding-labour-shrinking-market economy? Really?

Its strange. I still don't feel like I belong here, but that feeling is stronger than ever before. I don't wish to recognise this place as the perfect embodiment of the Uniquely Singapore booha; that nothing is uniquely Singaporean. Change for the sake of change. Whatever for? Its not improving anything. I dread. What it'll finally look like when all that construction is over. I'm quite sure I'll like it even even less than I do now.

That said, I have another point to make: I enjoyed the walk itself. Its the stuff along the way thats leaving the sour aftertaste.

Pic above is a concept of a stealth robot type hero character for the Zoopid grp prj. Yesh, finally getting down to it. And yes, lineless defination. The visor lights look kind of whacked, but anyway...

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

OMG.. words of...

and yes, I wanted to post this up but I forgot.

and you wonder why Singaporeans are thought to be elitist.

Then again, its probably for the better good of mankind, no?

Time for me to get that degree, before I end up without a mate. LOL.

Monday, October 27, 2008


At long last, that feeling that it could finally be our year, its back. Liverpool's win over Chelsea was as satisfying as beating manure. Well, almost. Early days still, I mean its still only 9 games into the season, but we're unbeatean, looking in great form, look slick going forward, never look like we're going to lose to anyone. Its great. If we're still on top by Xmas we can genuinely believe. Next few games are crucial, so fingers crossed. The title's coming home on the crest of the red tide!! Rawrrrrr~~~

Hitting a slump in my art direction. Can't seem to produce what I have in mind. Yina says, you work faster if you know what you want to do. I do, just that.. I don't knw what tools can get me to the final product. In simple terms, I don't knw how to make my software work for me, or should I say I don't knw how to use my software. Long way to go.

Had a nice chill out session @ Timbre last night. Cool place, pretty good company. As usual someone had to be the butt of our jokes, so sorry Wenqi. mwahahaha. And really, don't have to feel sad for me, what will be will be. If its not meant to be, too bad ;)

Signing contract tomorrow. Hope its the beginning of something good.

And let all money problems go out the window. I will not be responsible for the mistakes of somebody else.

Friday, October 24, 2008

First complete piece since... forever.

this took way too long. and still tons of bad about it. Linework's not very clean *despite taking forever to *try to* clean up*, not much tonal gradation, blah blah. I'm not even sure if thats a halberd, or a pike/speak/scythe she's wielding. Some weird hybrid I guess.

And I'm still not happy with her boob. It looks... nvm.


Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Ouch.. my eyes...

If the previous piece took too long.. then this took bloody forever. 4 hrs? I think. Reminder to self: don't overpaint and make shit look even muddier shittier. At least this looks like decent skin tone, exluding some patches that still look like dead skin ... but thats besides the point. I like how the eye turned out: eyelashes could be more defined and natural looking, pupil could have more depth.. ah well. 2nd attempt at this tutorial; this is by far the better one.

Now I'll go watch Man Vs Wild.

Monday, October 20, 2008

This is me. I think.

Alright... this isn't really me. Mouth's too big, for one. And.. I'm not bald. I just don't knw what to do with the hair so... viola.

Random face painting practice. Need to work on speed.. took way too long. 1 hr I think? gah. Now I shall make up for lost sleep.


I need to work faster. Think less. Hm... make that.. don't think at all.

And I shall hunt down the mosquito(s) that kept me awake till 6 last night. Screw you.

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Sunday. Still in a daze.

The same locations, rendered and put together in some kind of village setting.

Exhilarating football match last night between Wigan and Liverpool. Made me forget things, made me feel alive, gave me some kind of purpose, some kind of inspiration; if only for abt 100 minutes. After that reality kicked in again.

Today is one of the rare occasions when I don't like the rain. Felt like going out and soaking, but still had stuff to finish. By the time I did, the rain had stopped. I missed the chance to walk in the rain. Again.

If I pass the trial, I should be signing. I'll be working again. Doesn't feel like I've had enough of a break but as things stand now, I don't really have a choice. Not having any income, when the rest of the economic world is collapsing around me, seems like a luxury I can no longer afford.

I feel like screaming. K box anyone?

Friday, October 17, 2008

Today = No Good Day

Theme for the week: Toilet Bowls.

Everyone needs one. They take in all your shit without giving you any, and they don't complain. They don't make ridiculous requests. They don't cheat behind your back. They're always there for you. They know all your dirty secrets. So ladies and gentlemen, please give your wonderful self-sacrificing toilets bowls a little bit of your love, and flush them properly, wipe them with Magiclean and give them a little kiss. They'll love you for it.

Summary of today:

Bad day. Woke up feeling like a testosterone-overdose.

Get stupid news.

Did something hilariously stupid on msn: Like posting a horribly inappropriate link to a girl. Felt like tha dumbest ass on earth.

Did some stuff that turned out looking quite dumb. Yes, the stuff above. Actually some location roughs.

Get some more stupid news. I realise that I will have to pay for someone else's mistakes. Just because.

Reminder to self: never dabble in property even if you have the money. My kids, if ever, might have to pay off my debts.

ps: to the ladies who left me msgs on msn when I was afk, thanks. Love you lots *hugs*

Thursday, October 9, 2008


Speed painting. Well, it was supposed to be a speed painting... took more than an hour. So remove the speed from that.

Random. Thinking of stuff, and this came out amidst chaotic thoughts of world doom and random strokes on my tablet.

Maybe all I want is a quiet hut without any disturbance.

ps: before you go on your long list of critique... pls bear in mind that this is random. I knw there are a lot of things wrong with this.

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Wow, 2 posts in a day!! Am I really that free???

No updates for a while, so here's making up for it. mwahahahahah XD

It seems that a lot of people in this line, esp. @ management level, have no idea how a production pipeline works. Can lah can lah, no problem, can be done, no sweat.... get a life. Anyone who has prior production experience would knw that it is IMPOSSIBLE to come up with a working game demo (we're not talking pixel style pac man here..), with full 3D, integrated UI and proper coding... in 6 mths. Much less when you don't even have a proper production and programming team. NO PROGRAMMING TEAM. How the hell you're supposed to make the game, I have no idea.

Went volleyball again, on children's day. Yes I knw its supposed to be a bi-monthly thing, but.. things happen you knw. Like people pang seh and fly aeroplane, too lazy to wake up, have to accompany girlfriend blah blah blah... its not my fault, I swear.

Anyway, this time it's with a different bunch of people, namely Elaine's crazy gang. So I became part of the excess baggage, with Juline and YH in tow. Didn't take us too long to realise how out of our depth we are. Well it was fun overall. Better at volleyball than I thought I was *still out of my depth, but still somewhere I guess*. And I guess its easier to let loose when you're surrounded by dudes who are clinically insane and pretty friendly, prima facie. Maybe should pull my sec sch bunch to play with them sometime. Could see some sparks flying... *chuckles*

Relaxed mood, hamstrings feel like overpulled drawstrings, but looking forward to the next volleyball session. Note to self: remember to stretch the next time.

Room's still a mess. I shrug. Someday I will clean up my room. Really.

And here's a nice video link to end off this rant.

Finally done with this... Hurray!! On to the next big thing...

couple of freelance BGs for Tyler Games ... copyrighted to them of course. 3 frm a batch of 8 that I've been working on since... forever. lol ... procrastination is a sick disease. Next job on the list then =)

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Spin me up!

You are The Wheel of Fortune

Good fortune and happiness but sometimes a species of
intoxication with success

The Wheel of Fortune is all about big things, luck, change, fortune. Almost always good fortune. You are lucky in all things that you do and happy with the things that come to you. Be careful that success does not go to your head however. Sometimes luck can change.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

weee. test link is here

Wednesday, August 6, 2008


I'm done backing up, burning, removing all the shit in my computer. In the process I realised what a mess I am... tons of programs, weird toolbars, random files blah blah blah in my computer. Really, time to get it together and CLEAN UP THE ROOM. *well I mean clean up my life, but the room's a nice place to start isn't it?*

Random comment from XX today when I mentioned that my room is still in a mess. "Guys rooms should be messy what... if guy's room is clean, then that guy is GHEY." Food for thought there. Maybe, as someone else mentioned long long ago, I just want to be in touch with my feminine side. *lmao*

Time to reformat, and hibernate.

Monday, August 4, 2008



hmm .... not quite what I expected but seems quite accurate...

test can be taken here: http://tungisland.googlepages.com/article060.html

Sunday, July 27, 2008

My first time...

In Sentosa on a saturday morning, playing beach volleyball. Yes I played beach volley. Not played volleyball since my secondary school days, and never played it on a beach (yes I have no life). But yeah, now IS the time for me to try things anew I guess. Great fun, good day out in the not-so-sunny sunshine, and had some eye candy to go with it. Not bad for a morning outing.

Body feels shagged *should really step up the excercise regime*, but I feel really refreshed. Hope this is the springboard for me to get on with life. Try more, do more, work more, feel more. While I still have the time and energy.

Preparing computer for reformat. I might disappear for awhile *like, log in less msn* after this, might not. We'll see.

Looking forward to more happy weekends. LOL.

Thursday, July 24, 2008


is gonna be a long post, because... well its just gonna be.

Today I added to my collection of "Gundam Models still stuck in their boxes". Latest additions to the family, I welcome you. I SHOULD get down to building them and the other guys who are still in bits and pieces in their boxes. Hur hur.

Had lunch with 2 of my "sistahs" today. Pretty good, though topics I weren't expecting sprung up. I was asked a question I didn't really want to answer; at this point in time I don't know the answer to that particular question. I might find the answer tomorrow, next year, who knows. Maybe I'm subconciously hanging on; maybe I'm subconciously waiting for better options. Maybe it just is. I wonder; I hope I'll see soon enough.

Kind of funny, now that I think of it, that I meet the same person twice in the same day, but it happened. LOL. Anyway, due to an unexpected chain of events, I was asked to a play that I had not planned to attend, by one of the "sistahs" I met for lunch. So there I was, at Sunshine Plaza, chugging 2 huge boxes home, and 5 hrs later I'm back at the same area. Troublesome shit travelling from Jurong to Bugis to Jurong and back again. But.. was well worth the trouble; the performance far exceeded my expectations (well maybe I wasn't expecting anything in the first place, but nvm): Not had such good entertainment for a while, not had such a good laugh for a while. Eye candy aplenty too.

Now I'm on the look out for a sort of girlfriend. Sort of *chuckles*

And then ... this song's been stuck in my head, My Love Will Get You Home by Christine Glass. Lyrics slightly modified.

If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Girl, my love will get you home.

If the bright lights blinds your eyes, my love will get you home.
If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Girl, my love will get you home.

If you ever feel ashamed, my love will get you home.
When there's only you to blame, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Girl, my love will get you home,
Girl, my love will get you home.

I'm loving this song. Probably will be for quite a while. Maybe I shall dedicate it in advance, to whoever this girl might be.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Weird things I see...

What do you see when you combine the 3rd Angel frm Eva with Pinochio?

Imagine yourself in this room. Wide window, with the blinds drawn on your left. Whiteboard at one end. Empty space where the meeting table should have been. You're in the room, but not in the room; feels like you're some sort of security camera, with a worm's eye view of the room. It is dim, very dim... probably night time, with the lights off and the blinds drawn. The silhouettes of whatever is in the room can barely be made out. Teeth chatters; it is freezing cold, like you're in a cold room rather than a meeting room.

The door creaks open. Or you THINK it creaks open, as no sound is heard, as the door opens. Slowly. Slowly. No light pours in as the door opens; not quite what you expected. So the lights outside this room are off as well, you think to yourself. While you lost focus, the door opens fully. Took it long enough though.. then out of the corner of your eye, something moves. Slight, slight movement. Something touching the floor. A foot. Followed by another. Someone is walking into the room, and strangely, you only KNOW its someone; you can barely make out a silhouette that looks human, slowly walking into the room. The figure walks around the room. Slowly. All the while keeping his *assume to be a male* head down so you cannot make out his facial features. You notice that he looks strange; even though you can't make out details, you see little protrusions from his face; as if you were looking at a cactus. Other than that, you notice somethings else, as the figure slowly paces around the room. He has very long feet; he seems to have wrapped his arms in his sleeves across his chest; he's hunchbacked, or at least, walking with a hunch; he walks in an exaggerated wavy motion, almost like a cartoon character; he SEEMS to be bald, as light gleams off the top of his head.

You do not move from your position, or at least, you keep the same point of observation. After what seems like hours, the figure finally stops pacing around the room. You see him looking around the room a bit, and then, he arches back and stretches himself. His arms stretch out, exposing themselves from his sleeves, and now you see it; he has little fine protrusions along the length of his arms. Like the ones you saw previously on his face. What are those? Spikes? Nails?

And then his hands unclench, his fingers stretch out as well. Just like his feet, his fingers are unnaturally long. And sharp. And pointed. Like claws or hooks. He arches his back some more, and now you see it. His face. Yes. His spikey face. Set on a face thats porcelain white and seems made of ceramic. Black unbalanced, deep-set orbs of black that, perhaps, are his eyes. His nose, or what seems like his nose, splits his face vertically in 2. Sharp cheek bones, sharp protruding chin. No visible mouth.

He stops in mid pose, as if frozen. Or maybe, just maybe, he finally realises he's being watched. His head tilts, slowly, in your direction. Your eyes meet. Or rather, your eyes and his deep-set, jet black orbs on his face that you thought were his eyes. They start gleaming with a deep, violetish glow.

And in an instant, he's upon you. Right up to your face. Looking at you intensely. He reaches for his arm, for one of the protrusions on his arm, and pulls it out. Some liquid you assume to be blood squirts out. He holds the object between his fingers, and raises it to your face. You now see what it is that covers his arms and face: Long J hooks. He circles it round, and round, and round. And then you hear him speak. Or you think you hear him speak, as he has no mouth to speak of, or speak from. What you hear, the voice that breaks this chilling silence, is a deep, guttural, almost robotically monotone voice.

He asks: Would you like some of these too? His blood still drips off the hook.


I asked: What do you see when you combine the 3rd Angel frm Eva with Pinochio? I have the answer now, and I've seen him 2 nights in a row. Add to the previous string of weird dream's I've had over the past week, all of them set in my former workplace.

I love the night.

Monday, June 9, 2008

Of Sea Perches and Daikon Cream

I object. Violently. None of my brothers should be subjected to such torture. Miso Sea Perch with Daikon Cream. Ground, grated, mashed, blended... for cream!?!?! I can't even begin to imagine the pain they went through as they were heartlessly dumped into the blenders. I mourn your deaths, my beloved brethren. I shall observe a lifetime of EMO in remembrance XD

lolz. Dinner @ TCC was a blast. Haven't laughed so hard in a while, was really great fun. Sorry for making the ladies wait though (wush and jingwen, gomen~). Should have taken more pictures of the food, looked pretty gorgeous. Check out their spanking new menu if you haven't.

The dreams continue, and still not getting sleep. Its becoming a luxury item together with petrol and rice. Ah well, screw it.

I really should start painting this stuff. Actually, I love these guys. I'll probably develop them further. lol. Maybe. Perhaps, when I get out of Procrastination Lane.

May tomorrow be wonderful too, as it says, in this lullaby for you =)

Monday, June 2, 2008

I now belong to...

A select grp of people who are sitting in front of their monitor, blogging, at 0420 hrs in the morning.

Caffeine high? Maybe. I did have 6 cups of coffee today. So, I'm awake, but without the high. So its caffeine-induced-insomnia-minus-the-high. Maybe.

Too many things on my mind? Maybe. I'm thinking about a lot of things, without thinking of anything at all. Random thoughts racing all over the place. Almost like the scenes out of Speed Racer; a lot of movement, a huge blur of blinding fuschia and pink neon, sparks and explosions, then nothing left, but a sickening sense of WTF.

Maybe, I'm actually afraid to fall asleep. Afraid of what, who I might see once I close my eyes. Dreams that I've long forgotten are returning. Dreams I don't want to remember are repeating. I hear the same voice, the same voice from 8 years ago, saying: "Its me, don't you recognise me anymore?" This dream, I started having about 2 months ago, when I came across this girl at The Central who looked almost exactly like her. On and off, off and on. Now its back. I wonder when its going away.

No solace at home; no respite from work.

And I'm afraid to dream.

Monday, May 26, 2008

This is me???

I am loving this dude right now... hahahaha. Feels so much like me, its uncanny. Kind of sad, though, that I'm more like a plant than human? *chuckles*

Loosely inspired by the Dai-Gurren-dan's logo from Gurren Lagann. Never mind if you don't know what I'm babbling about =)

Sunday, May 25, 2008

Weee... this blog's been de-flowered!!!

Alright, first post. Its about time I started getting down to work again. Get back in the mood for drawing, then CG. We'll c if I get to that, lol.

First one's a supposed bday present *very late, and I lost the original so this is another version*, the 2nd one's a theme that ended up quite random. Shrugz.

Had a bad argument with a close friend the other day; jumped to conclusions and doubted her when I shouldn't have. If you're reading this, I'm really sorry it happened... I didn't mean to doubt you.

Today is the 26 May 08.