Mental Sums...

Heads up, the end of the year is fast approaching and so... its time to start thinking of another resolution for the new year that I'll probably not follow anyway.

Nah. Planning for the future is quite pointless right now. Instead, I shall look back on the past festive season and... do my maths. X-mas is over, and I'm not expecting *and not hoping for* any more surprises in the new yr. So, as it stands now, I've gotten the following as presents (x-mas, bdays, whatever):

1 very colourful PURPLE T-shirt *thanks you ladies and gentleman...*
1 very PINK t-shirt *to the same bunch of people...*
1 black with gold-printed GUYS NIGHT OUT t-shirt *company xmas exchange, don't knw what to say to this really...*
RHS vouchers *tks*
1 revoltech Gurren Lagann *loves it, thanks a lot =)*
1 handphone strap *well...*
1 copy of ImagineFX *omg... never thought I'd get something like this for gift exchange, awesome shit*
1 imitation Liverpool Jersey *oh well... lolz, tks I guess, haha*

Not too bad a haul, some pleasant surprises, some... pretty orz presents, la la.

I've way overspent again. Just did my sums for Oct - December. Including household expenses, I've spent a grand total of approx 4k in 3 mths. Horrible, horrible. I shall have to hibernate, scrimp and save for the next few mths, esp if I do go for the scuba licence.

And I've come to a decision, finally. Yep, enough is enough. Sometimes, hanging in there just makes you look like an even bigger loser. When all else fails, I have my sisters, my sister's mum (LOL, you know who you are), my friends. When even that fails..... I have despair.com to let me laugh it off.

Almost becoming a drama addict. So I guess, not much art update for the time being. There's a niggling suspicion that I might not survive my probation *probably another case of hypersensitive paranoia* but we'll tackle that if it happens. IF.

Lastly, some interesting stuff happening over at the zupids. Link on the right. Actually, we're expecting some interesting stuff to happen that is supposed to have happened already....

A little update on life v0.002

Test, test. Ok.

Its been about 2 weeks. 2 uneventful weeks. Wouldn't even have realised that 2 weeks had passed, if I didn't bother checking the dates. Anyway...

Collected my first paycheque frm current workplace. December hadn't started, and I've basically spent my December budget. Happy happy joy joy.

27th Nov. My birthday came and went. Got bday smses, facebook msgs, msn msgs. My current colleagues gave me a surprise birthday celebration in the office. Went through the motions. I wonder what their response would have been like if I had told them "I stopped celebrating my birthday 12 yrs ago." Maybe I'll try that next year.

Same day, dinner at NYNY @ AMK Hub. Got a pleasant surprise frm the bunch. I love the shirts (ok the pink one is a bit too big, and needs some getting used to I guess...) but yeah. Love it. Thanks for everything XD

29th Nov. Kbox session + bday celebration. Kind of. Kbox, followed by window shopping for a couple of hours, followed by lunch/dessert session at NYDC. The mudpie was awesome. Wush, pass me the photo of my mudpie please. I want to relive the taste of it. In the process of it all I quietly came to a decision. And, I'd like to say thanks to the organiser. Really appreciate the effort for everything =)

That was followed by my mum's bday celebration, which was utterly... spoilt. Utterly, totally spoilt only because some smart ass decided to ask his friends to come along for a drink and swearing session that was totally unwelcome, decided on all our behalfs to go to a restaurant no one really wants to go to *despite us making plans to go somewhere else*, and force beer down my throat when I wasn't in the mood to drink.

"Eh, you want to drink beer?"
"No..."
"Nevermind just serve him beer."

All the while my mum had this black face that he was totally oblivious to. Overall, a BAD day.

1 Dec. Had a much happier "celebration" at Brussels Sprouts with Donna, Len, Wush and... JIM. Yesh the phantom crawled out of her tomb! Wow, wasn't expecting her to turn up, honestly, but yeah, greatly appreciated. Donna, you look great, so forget the diet plan already. If any guy minds, just tell him to take it or fuck off. And to whom it may concern, we'll find you a nice boy, no worries abt it. Just... find me a nice girl in return. wahahahahah XD

4 Dec. WQ's long awaited wedding. It was really... a night to remember. Its amazing how long they've been together (3300++ days... omg) and even more amazing, how much they're still in love after so long. The wedding itself was beautiful: the lighting was perfect romantic, the food good; the company a blast. As Kenneth says, one of the best he's attended. I totally agree. Now we await the arrival of Audrey/WQ jr. Audrey's husband, get to work already.

I think I should paint something happy to brighten my life up a little. Oh yes, X mas is coming no? Then again, the painting mood has eluded me. Probably gonna take a while to get it back.

Now let me try to get into a festive mood, while I think of what presents to get for people. weee~

A little update on life...

As the title says. Quite a bit has happened since I last posted. In a nutshell...

1. I started work.

2. I decided to eat in during lunch time. Always. It shall stay that way. Unless I'm asked out.

3. A certain lady asked me out for lunch for reasons that... i found quite strange. She was pretty in a black long sleeved top, but what we talked about... was far from pretty. *lol* Had a long chat, thought of some things while chatting, told her somethings that i wanted to keep to myself, overshot my lunch hour, yadda yadda. Agreed on somethings with her, hope she remembers.

4. Had lunch with my bunneh sistah at this cafe in OG Bugis. Interesting place that, I commented, would be nice for a night date.

5. Was asked to help out with WQ's wedding videos.

6. Attended my cousins' belated wedding dinner, and had a good bonding session with my niece in the process. Yesh, the same niece who whacked my head with a Rubix cube during CNY. Ah well, nvm. She's so adorable I'll forgive her for anything.

7. Company lunch @ Sakuran Orchard.

8. Anime Fest Asia, day 1. Lunch @ Kuishinbo before heading down to the event. Honestly, a bit of a letdown. Was expecting much more, though the Sky Crawlers trailers had me licking my lips. Some of the Gundam dioramas were pretty impressive as well.

9. Anime Fest Asia, day 2. Went to Kino before that and burnt all $100 worth of my Kino vouchers. May'n's concert was a blast. Finally, something happened this month that wasn't a disappointment: she was as good a live performer as I expected, even better. Regret not getting a VIP pass. The seminar by the Studio 4C prj manager *can't remember her name... blehz* was also very enlightening. Its a pity that, to me at least, I don't believe Studio 4C's idealogies can work in profit oriented (and nothing else) SG.

10. Also met that certain lady who asked me out for lunch earlier in the mth. And I noticed that she was wearing the same long sleeved black top she did when she met me for lunch. *yes I notice petty details like that* So we watched May'n together, the bunch of us. For the 2nd time, we watched a concert together. I wonder if she realised that.

The month simply zipped past. So fast, its unreal. There's also this overwhelming desire to detach myself frm everything, everyone. Feels like too much of a chore. Ghosts of the past keep returning to haunt me. One morning, during breakfast, right after the wedding dinner, I had to resist the urge to scream at my mum and brother. Pls, just stop talking about it. You don't know a thing; I do. Don't make it worse for me.

Been playing the new OO opening on loop for the past couple of days. *"Because love always hurt me..." you whispered.* Loving it. Its amazing how you can hide such sad lyrics in such a happening rhythm and beat.

I've way overspent. Now I shall start counting down to payday *whistles~~~*.

Its a little late...

for Halloween, I know. And its 0230. yawn.

(edited, edited. I think this is complete.)

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Daikon: Pumpkin... thanks for being with me this Halloween...

Pumpkin: Dumbass, do you really think I wanna be stuck here with u?

Project Zoopid, entry 2

With a new signature. lol.

not really sure what else to do with it so I'll leave it as it is for now.

On to the next card.

30 minute quickie

As it says. Quick paint while waiting for the liverpool portsmouth game. Random cyborg girl... not sure if I'll be doing anymore to her. Like the way she looks right now. hur hur

Project Zoopid, entry 1

Today I walked frm Sim Lim Tower to Takashimaya. Again. Wasn't too long ago that I walked the same route actually. So why did I do it again? Well.. came across some rant on theonlinecitizen abt the state of Singapore's iconic shopping paradise (never bought that notion btw.. Orchard to me was just another place I didn't belong to), and so I decided to walk down again and take another look. It was warm, sunny, but best of all, there was a nice breeze all the time. So I strolled. Walked. Took in what I could. At the end of it all, there were several things I noticed:

1. There's a lot of god damned construction going on. All retail space. Do we really have that much money to spend on building retail malls that are only going to makes us spend more of our lesser monies?

2. Its a mess. Probably due to all the construction at the same time, which brings me to the next thing...

3. Why is everything being built at the same time? Is all this construction generating 50k jobs for our expanding-labour-shrinking-market economy? Really?

Its strange. I still don't feel like I belong here, but that feeling is stronger than ever before. I don't wish to recognise this place as the perfect embodiment of the Uniquely Singapore booha; that nothing is uniquely Singaporean. Change for the sake of change. Whatever for? Its not improving anything. I dread. What it'll finally look like when all that construction is over. I'm quite sure I'll like it even even less than I do now.

That said, I have another point to make: I enjoyed the walk itself. Its the stuff along the way thats leaving the sour aftertaste.

Pic above is a concept of a stealth robot type hero character for the Zoopid grp prj. Yesh, finally getting down to it. And yes, lineless defination. The visor lights look kind of whacked, but anyway...