Vegetable King

2011-06-01T02:11:00.001-07:00

2011-05-03T00:16:00.000-07:00

Environment concept: Post apocalyptic

2011-02-22T00:27:00.000-08:00

mood test.

edit: v3 with lightened MG n BG. better contrast *tks YH*

2011-02-20T19:31:00.000-08:00

Basics, basics, basics.

2011-02-17T19:49:00.000-08:00

Values, values, values.

Cyborg girl

2011-02-08T20:34:00.000-08:00

WDP, entry 1

2011-01-31T22:24:00.001-08:00

Oblivious. In the Garden of Sinners

2010-10-26T00:23:00.000-07:00

I'm so hooked on this song.

lyrics:

Kalafina – oblivious

作詩：梶浦由記 (Kajiura Yuki)
作曲：梶浦由記

本当は空を飛べると知っていたから
羽ばたくときが怖くて風を忘れた

oblivious
何処へ行くの
遠くに見えるあの蜃気楼
いつか怯えながら
二人の未来を映して

よるべない心二つ寄り添う頃に
本当の悲しみがほら翼広げて

oblivious
夜の中で
真昼の影を夢見るように
きっと堕ちて行こう
光へ

いつか　君と　二人
夜を　朝を　昼を　星を　幻想を
夏を　冬を　時を　風を
水を　土を　空を
we go further in the destiny……

oblivious
側にいてね
静かな恋がほら始まるよ
いつか震えながら
二人の未来へ

oblivious
何処へ行くの
遠くへ逃げてゆく水の中
何て綺麗な声で
二人の未来を
歌って

The truth is that ever since I realized I could fly in the sky
I’ve been too afraid to flap my wings, and I’ve forgotten the wind

oblivious
Where are we headed?
Far off in the distance we can see a mirage
Which although we fear it
Will show us our future someday

When our shelterless hearts drew close together
Look, true sorrow has spread apart its wings

oblivious
In the night
Like a dream of midday shadows
I’m sure we shall fall
Toward the light

Someday, with you
Night, morning, afternoon, stars, illusion
Summer, winter, time, wind
Water, earth, sky
we go further in the destiny……

oblivious
Stay close to me
Look, a silent love begins
Someday we will shiver
As we head toward our future

oblivious
Where are we headed?
We flee into the distance underneath the water
What a beautiful voice
Sing aloud
Our future

the Holy Bovine

2010-09-19T01:47:00.000-07:00

Behold! The Holy Horny Cow!

Phoenix WIP

2010-08-25T22:28:00.001-07:00

Phoenix theme. Might be a little over ambitious with this one...

edit: Done. Crap but it's done....entire piece is probably too warm and orangey.

She's nameless....

2010-08-24T07:33:00.000-07:00

for now. B'day thingy for Isaac.. pardon the background, or lack of it.

Candy

2010-08-18T05:48:00.001-07:00

Candy, with her giant orange lollipop.

Viking 2

2010-08-17T10:47:00.000-07:00

The 2nd viking.

Dragon.

2010-08-09T07:56:00.000-07:00

Guarding his clutch of magic mushrooms. Don't mess with him. hur hur.

edit: darkened BG for better contrast.

Vikings

2010-07-28T21:15:00.001-07:00

First in a series of 3 that I started on after watching How to train your dragon.

Hentai. Witch. Sneak preview.

2010-07-08T20:05:00.001-07:00

Biggest boobs I've tried to do.. to date. So stop complaining :P

edit: update, + another one.
edit2: update on wip.. having problems with skin tone and... everything in general. Must focus. lol.

If you're happy and you know it, clap your hands!!! clap clap

2010-04-18T04:44:00.000-07:00

Nope, sorry, what i'm going to say has nothing to do with the title. Hur.

How to train your dragon. Very nice. Not spectacular, but very nice nonetheless. I take offence to the impression it gives kids: that it's ok to keep any kind of animal as a pet. No, it's not. Wildlife should remain that way.

Summer Wars, great movie. Good animation, very wacky concept. Beautiful.

Cloudy with a chance of meatballs. So random, it defies belief. Though I'd imagine... the production team must have had lots of fun. Just look at all the food concepts.... insane stuff. Tempted to get the artbook now.

Men who stare at goats. After watching this, I was left with a huge void in my head. WTF was that all about... meh?

Quite likely to splurge on books. Artbooks, mostly. Up, How To Train Your Dragon. George Bridgman's Life Drawing books. Maybe Cloudy. Maybe Toy Story 3.

Planning for Japan trip begins in earnest. Money set aside.

Looking forward to Spanish dinner with the ladies. Looking forward to dim sum with another bunch of ladies. (though.. when is it really? LOL)

Hentai girl project with Isaac and Shahida. LOL.

Looks like my days at Mediafreaks are coming to an end. Other than the loss of income... I don't really care XD

Day of the Unicorn

2010-03-27T19:49:00.000-07:00

End of a wretched week, when nothing, big small minor trivial, seemed to go right. But well, you know what they say... weather the storm, and you see the brilliant sunshine when the clouds clear (守得云开，见月明）. Sometimes all it takes to make your week, is some god awesome robot anime *laughs*

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"Do you have the confidence that the feelings you've followed here will not falter?

The burden she carries with her isn't light.... to walk alongside her, you must be prepared to shoulder the entire world... Do you still wish to go?"

"I have no confidence, nor am I prepared.... I just want her to need me."

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Its been a while, not since Macross Zero, since I've been so excited over an OVA release. The anticipation been building up for a while: since news was first released about its impending release, many fans have waited for the day. Sick of the new thrash series Gundams (yes SEED, Destiny and OO, I mean you, you and you.) Sunrise has been dishing out, hardcore Gundam fans have clamoured for a new UC series, back to the old school when the plot actually mattered. The announcement of several projects for Gundam's 30th anniversary brought up the hype: game releases like Gundam: Battlefield Records *again, awesome animated intro... could spring an OVA of its own really* were part of it. What got everyone buzzing was this.

Gundam Unicorn. A novel. Side story. Serialised. Some dismissed it as hearsay... many didn't believe Sunrise had the guts to go back to the UC for fear of alienating their new fans (the kids watching SEED and gabra). Yet the rumours persisted, until it was finally announced officially. Image after image.. leading up to the first teaser trailer. Gawd, that trailer was AWESOME. But hey, just a trailer. Don't get your hopes up too much; after all... OO did look very promising initially. The full official trailer.... well. Amazing doesn't quite do it justice.

So it was with a lot of anticipation that I finally watched it. *download lah.... spend 100 bucks on gundam merchandise to redeem ticket for limited screening? I wish I had the cash....* OMG. Beautiful soundtrack. Beautiful environments. Beautiful mecha designs. Gawd awesome animation. It made me weep. I hope, for myself and all the other fans weeping with me *LOL* that this isn't a one off, that we'll not be left high and dry by yet another promised-so-much-yet-deliver-so-little series. The signs are looking good though.

Trailer for Gundam Battlefield Record UC 0081.
Trailer for Gundam Unicorn

Can't wait for the next ep. Ahh......

Sugar is cold.....

2010-03-20T20:49:00.001-07:00

Finito. Thanks to Yinghol, Sha and CL for colour advice. weeee!

Work time doodles.

2010-03-17T23:37:00.000-07:00

This is what my head looks like. Maybe.

2010-03-16T03:55:00.000-07:00

Pierced through with an L pin.

Bunny Dragon

2010-01-11T10:57:00.000-08:00

Ok.. Supposed to be a Xmas exchange with wush, but... procrastinated. So its late. LOL. sorry for that *swt*

Minus one backlog. More backlogs to clear...

Merry X'mas!

2009-12-23T20:43:00.000-08:00

China photos once I'm done... hur hur.

Fly away~

2009-12-11T10:41:00.001-08:00

Off I go. To China. Guilin. Guangxi. Don't miss me, my darlings.

Daily. Ok, its not so daily now.

2009-11-26T02:35:00.000-08:00

Thanks to everyone who came for my *not so surprise, thanks to boon hock* celebration, and for the beautifully awesome present. Special thanks to the organiser(s) too =)

You can (not) advance.

2009-11-15T08:03:00.000-08:00

Yes. Evangelion 2.0. Awesome, mindblowing shit. Worth every penny of the movie ticket. Now the long wait for 3.0 begins. Hur Hur.

I bought Modern Warfare 2. This could be one of the biggest mistakes of my life... its just so addictively awesome. My life shall be wasted on this game. Lots of it. hur.

Daily Environment Sketch 1

2009-11-12T22:58:00.001-08:00

15 minutes. While I was supposed to be working... hur. Make it a point to keep them coming, daily. It shall be done.

Hummer. Car Dude1.

2009-11-01T05:10:00.000-08:00

Ok. Took awhile, but hey....

There's supposed tobe more, I know.

Slump

2009-10-02T07:17:00.000-07:00

Yes, slump. So I shall post up random stuff instead.

Old Brown Shoe's quality has dropped. Pretty badly. Calamari tasted like dried rubber bands *and looked like that..*, the ladies weren't happy with the fish and chips, which looked a little too oily even by my standards. New chef? Maybe. Just didn't feel the same. Perhaps it just wasn't the right company.

*at this point, I've sort of forgotten what else I'd wanted to say.*

I'm dawdling with Saffron. Dawdling with Wraith. And Octopus Girl. And a lot of other things.

I'm starting to really hate Singtel.

Been having a screwed throat for the past 2 weeks. Started with flu, then a throat infection. Seen the doctor twice, to no avail. Each time it seems like its getting better, I go back to work and it gets worse. Its finally recovering, but hell, its taking a bloody long time. FFS, took me only 1 night to recover from a bloody fever, with no medication. Why's a throat infection taking so long?

My drawing table at home collapsed. Its now propped up with boxes and comics. LOL. Yes, like I did with my bed when that collapsed a while back. But heh, the bed's fixed permanently. I think?

*by now, you've probably realised that I'm just typing whatever comes to mind... no?*

Playing L4D again. Don't think I'll be getting part 2 though... looks too much like a rip off.

Had a good dinner at Liang Court Basement. The Japanese food court. Then went nuts at the Japanese supermarket. Bought a packet of Almond Rochas which... someone threw away with the trash. Ahem.

I'm in love with Miho Fukuhara. First heard her on FMA Brotherhood's latest ED, Let It Out. Went on imeem to search for her stuff and man... was I surprised. She's good. Linked playlist for those with an imeem acc.

And.. I still want to go for Brazillian meat buffet. And chocolate buffet. And sashimi. Yes... maybe I shall think about what I'd want to have for my last meal on earth.... random apocolyptic thought of the day.

Thank you Harkem, for giving me something to do. And a chance to make amends for disappearing, LOL.

Looking forward to OIC Portrait Day.

Artwork in the next post.

Oops?

2009-09-04T09:29:00.000-07:00

The mad man in me just surfaced....

Was supposed to shop for birthday present. Spent 200+++... without getting the present. Heck, the money wasn't even spent on things I actually needed....

Is this what happens when you have too much pent up frustration, and you haven't had retail therapy for.... almost a yr? Ah well... at least now I can clear out a part of my wardrobe...

Still no cowboy hat though. Drats.

Lime

2009-08-30T01:43:00.000-07:00

Its amazing how much time i spent on this.... unearthly. I must paint faster. And stop staring into space while doing it. meh. Well.. quite happy with her, truth be told.

Next one on the list.. Saffron. Redhead. Ooooh yeah baby.

Counting down to chocolate buffet. Really... nothing much else to look forward to in terms of entertainment / life in general. Maybe Eva 2.0. Maybe scuba. Maybe fly kite. And Henderson Waves.. (supposed to go long time ago...). Maybe.

Oh yes, and the next Liverpool match. Come on you Reds!!!

Sugar, version 2

2009-08-28T10:44:00.001-07:00

dead skin tone still looks dead.

Spice

2009-08-23T02:05:00.000-07:00

She looks really deranged... small. Blahz.

Colour theory, in a nutshell

2009-08-22T20:34:00.001-07:00

http://conceptart.org/forums/showthread.php?t=17837

Self reminder..

2009-08-02T02:12:00.000-07:00

List of stuff I have on hand.

Short term illustrations

- the rabbit
- sinyo, aka octopussy *laughs*
- Sugar
- beer hotel
- Wraith

Long term projects

- Sugar and Spice (conceptualise)
- Rose (gunblade girl) + sidekick
- the mecha race, including Wraith (leftover from the zoopid proj)
- mecha designs for Wing: The Last Tango *sniggers*
- redevelop the cast of Carnage (Wolfgang, Orion, Diva, etc.)
- my own "brand", including new banner, new "mascot"

Moar.

2009-07-31T18:34:00.000-07:00

WIP. I have more WIPs. But I'll show these first.

Updates on life:

Pasta Inc + Old Brown Shoe dinner outing. Shiokness. Again, too much sin for one night.. the panna cotta I had for dessert was drop dead delicious. Again... who gives a damn for sin? I live to eat. LOL!

Flash Mob Vivo was awesome. Fun. Yes despite the poor organisation, despite the lack of spontaneity from Singaporeans ..... despite Nicci giggling non-stop beside me, despite Nani doing her taichi dance in front of me. Then again, that was part of the fun too. mwahahah!! Photos on facebook.

*and I still don't know what Nicci was doing beside me. What the hell was she giggling at man?*

Bond period is drawing to a close. Seriously looking at schools. Considering selling my soul. LOL. *what soul, you might say... ah well.* Portfolio ah... portfolio. Work work work.

Thrown my excercise regime out of the window, and its all coming back. The fat, that is. Time to restart. hoooo.... Wonder if October would be a good time to scuba. Again. Oh yes, our PADI certs are ready for collection. Reminder to self: buy the RDP when you go down to collect it.

Joined the ladies for swim for the first time. Sinyo and YY swim well; the other 2 are.. well. Still finding their way? Though Juls's a pretty fast learner. Maybe I'll join them again next week. Maybe I'll join CL for run. Ah, decisions decisions. In the meantime, I shall swim at lunch time again; been eating too much. LOL!

I'm looking forward to the sashimi dinner. And Barrage. Did I say I'm supposed to be on a diet?

Art. Spam. Weee!!

2009-07-19T06:36:00.001-07:00

I've almost forgotten abt this blog =P

Lots of things have happened since the last entry. Gone and survived scuba (I'm now a certified Open Water Diver), gone on holiday in the Cameron Highlands, and finally, finally... started using Painter. The above are all Painter. Still getting used to it, and my copy has a lot of bugs... (lost the work file of don.jpg... for no reason whatsover..) but anyway. Its a start. Muddy painting is still muddy, still suck at skin tones and everything else in general... Its a shame really, that the one i'm most satisfied with is the one I did first. Ah well *shrugs*

btw, first one is for company art dept art jam *yes! we have one of those! weekly! weee!!!*, second one's for donna, third one's for Sha. Sorry, borrowed your idea somwhat... LOL!

Now hooked on Gordon Ramsay. And hooked on Painter. Why didn't I do this earlier? Oh, fuck me =P

tuesday, 9th June 2009. Day of Sin.

2009-06-11T02:19:00.000-07:00

Everyone needs food therapy. Some need it more than once in a while, some need it more than once a day. I belong in both categories. Sheesh XD

Pasta Inc, again. This time its our first ever.... MF WW Art Team lunch. OMG... *while i silently wonder how many more there'll be.. LOL*!!!

My oh so heavenly carbonara pasta. I tried to promote the Nero de Seppia to the others, but no one took the bait. Dammit. This was one hell of a carbonara though. So good...

3 of us ordered it. LOL!! Well actually it was a coincidence, only realised these Christina and Juline ordered the same thing when it was served. Talk about coincidences. On a side note.. Juline doesn't like being captured on camera, when she's not ready. Just look at the murderous aura.

The other dudes at the party. Chan Leen, the suave hunky dude in the white top, and David the... not so suave and hunky.

Good session overall. Food therapy is good for productivity!! *I know, I felt too happy to work after that LOL!!*

Enough for a day? Hell no. You can never do too much sin, or have too much good food in a day.

Next up: Old Brown Shoe!! Dinner!!

Weston's Vintage Cinder, ooo so sexay calamari, ooo so pretty picture on the newspaper wrapping.

And there's the sexier stuff. Oooo la la!! Don't be deceived... there's a mountain of chips underneath that huge plateau of fried fish.

Too much sin for a day? Maybe. *burps*

A little bit of pasta heaven. Inc.

2009-05-31T05:03:00.000-07:00

reminder to self: sinful lunches might make you happy, but it also burns a huge hole in the wallet.
reminder to self v2: if it makes you happy, then the hole is worth burning.

Friday the 29th of May, last working day of the month. Frustrated as always, and having brought my swim gear home, I decided to walk out for lunch. I remembered this place, a short walking distance from my office, that I've been wanting to try for awhile but always changed my mind at the last minute. Budget lah. On this day, I decided, fuck it, I'm going in.

So I did. I was greeted by the manager Keith, and ushered inside without much fuss. Inside, there wasn't much fuss either: Nice crystal lightings, red on white curtains / table cloths, very cosy looking dining area. First impression: Hmm. Nice, but could do wiht a little renovation.

Service was really prompt and friendly. Ordered 3 course set lunch after looking through the menu (pastas on their own are between 13 - 19, + 3 dollars for soup and tiramisu... sounded too good to be true. there're also pizzas and baked rice on the menu).

Soup was served first, with a basket of sliced bread. Bread was ok; the soup was something else altogether. I've almost never had such rich tasting mushroom soup *zuchinni something, can't remember the actual name* with real, chewy mushroom bits. Flavourful. Great start to the meal.

Pasta was up next. Based on info from various foodblogs and sites, I found out that this place is reknowned for its squid ink pasta (nero di seppia), so I decided to try that. Black mess it looked like *first time trying, lah... always thought that the black stuff was a bit of a turn off*: spaghetti topped off with a couple of plump looking prawns, 1 mussel and several clams. Well, still didn't look particularly appetising.

But once you start eating, you realise something: This isn't just any black mess of spaghetti. It.was.awesome. *shall I try to say it like barney? nah....* Pasta was springy, chewy, full of zing. I think the correct term is al dente? Ah well, who cares. It was awesome. The seafood was fresh too; something we should expect, but still a nice touch. Sometimes, you feel the urge to just gobble everything down: not because the food is good, but because its just too yucky. None of that here, took quite a while to savour every last strand of spaghetti, in fact.

I nearly burped out loud, and there's still the tiramisu to come! And this, is one of the better tiramisu I've had. *ok, i've not had a lot of it, but you get my point.* Melt-in-your-mouth, rum-infused cake layer, coming together in a little plate of sinful gastronomic sin. Wow. It was good.

Good stress relief. Good food makes a happy man out of this grouchy pot bellied weirdo. I'll be back here soon enough, me thinks. And next time, I shall remember to take some peektures.

Pasta Inc. A little bit of pasta heaven. Do a search for it on hungrygowhere if you're interested =)

I confess.

2009-05-23T08:51:00.000-07:00

A long time ago. At East Coast Park. On a crowded, weekend afternoon. A certain someone was cycling. Well, learning how to cycle anyway, since he's pretty noob at it. This certain someone had a few problems: firstly, his sense of balance is as good as that of a walking water bed. secondly, there were alot of people, cycling, walking, running, throwing sand at each other yadda yadda... near and around the tracks he was trying to learn to cycle. A noob cyclist, a lot of screaming kids running around. Sounds like a perfect recipe for disaster? You bet, and it nearly was. While cycling at full speed *since, in his noob cyclist state, he couldn't really balance unless he was speeding*, a little kid suddenly appeared out of nowhere, across his path. Holy mother fuck!he screamed in his mind!as he panicked and tried to maneuver out of the kid's way. the irony of it all? He managed to prevent the kid's death-by-rampaging-noob-cyclist, but failed to avoid the black metal lamppost. Yes, you'd think the moving target would be harder to dodge... the poor cyclist left East Coast Park with a long gash on his shin, a severely bruised ego, and a hugely painful pump on his head. Plus the memory of a traumatising event, which goes like... *100 stares frm curious onlookers wondering what the fuck just happened, a few laughing friends at the side, and a very shell shocked kiddo who happened to walk acroos his path.*

That cyclist was me. And today, that cyclist went back to Pulau Ubin for another shot at the *Learn how to cycle or forever be a noob* challenge.

I'm back at home now, relatively unscathed. Save for very sore forearms, very tired legs.

So, this time, I won. Without falling over even once. Nearly did a couple of times, but well.. I'm proud of myself. *smirks*

Plus. Today, someone told me something very interesting. I also saw alot of interesting things happening. Yes, its gotten me interested. *laughs*

ps> I really love having the wind in my face. Whether its on a boat, soaked in sea spray, or down a dirt track on a speeding bicycle.

After a week of swimming and running...

2009-05-22T08:06:00.000-07:00

I feel like crap. I think.. its a case of too much, too soon. Lunchtime swim, night time run. Repeat. Though its only a 10 lap leisure swim, and a short / slow jog of approx. 3km at night, + 50 push ups daily, 25 in the morning, 25 at night. My body feels wasted. I guess.. its a transition period. Body's getting used to this new excercise regime. I shall persevere, and up the tempo when I feel up for it.

On the plus side, I'm starting to see results.. so hang in there. I shall be tall, dark, handsome.. and healthy, soon enough. LOL!

Work? Nah. I shall not talk about work here. Personal work, maybe. I'll need to list out all the things I wanted to do, for a start.

A little update on life v0.004

2009-05-20T07:45:00.000-07:00

Uploaded kelong photos on facebook. Its long overdue, I know.

Heck, everything is long overdue. Long list of artwork that I've supposed to have done long long long long long long time ago.

Excercise routine begins. Run, swim, run, swim... lah. I'm getting my old tan back. Hopefully the belly and flabby ass will go away soon enough.

Diet, diet, diet.

Thought of buying a watch.

Might have to get spectacles sooner than I thought.

Snapped at work today: Stormed out of the office after yet another power trip. Sent out a really nasty email after that. I was childish, out of control, in need of anger management. Blahz.

Backup, reboot, reformat. beeeeeep.

I need the booze at OBS real soon. Where are my drinking buddies yo!!!

Reality. I have returned. Bye Bye Kelong.

2009-05-03T17:15:00.000-07:00

Back frm kelong trip. 2.5 days of.. chill. Not the cold type of chill, but the relax, recharge kind of chill.

Some things I discovered over the course of this trip.

1. Fishing while dipping your feet in the water is really therapeutic. Actually, the motions involved in casting ur fishing line is, in itself, really therapeutic. First time I fished since my uncle brought me to Tuas like... 20 yrs ago? hur hur.

2. Its not the catching the fish that really matters. I "caught" 2 fish. The first one, wasn't sure if it was a catch, just felt something pulling at my line. So i reeled it in, and omg! there was a fish. Smallish little creature, threshing abt wildly. Good for it that it did, cause.. the fish, small as it was, managed to snap my hook just as i was abt to reel it out of the water. *shrugs*. The second one.. wow. Felt a very strong tug, which I thought was the current, or something getting caught in my hook. Reeled it in anyway, that was then I realised I had a catch, since the tugging continued. Seemed like it was a patterned tug. Like.. tug tug tug, pause, tug. Pause... TUG. woo, heavy heavy. I started reeling in faster (juline says i look bo chap then... LOL?), getting more excited with anticipation, till finally I could see the little punk I baited. OMG. A. PUFFER. FISH. Yellow and black spots, puffed up, and looking pretty pissed. LOL! Reeled the dude out of the water (reel actually got stuck at this point. I think I spaced out for a while and reeled the wrong direction. whichever.) while it was still doing its tug tug pause routine. When it was finally out of the water, it stopped, seemingly resigned to its fate. Man! for its size, that punk is heavy.. could feel its weight through the line. I looked at the fish, now motionless except for the puffing of its gills, when suddenly, the fella decided to go for it one last time. Violently convulsing from side to side...side to side.... PIAK. My line broke. Amidst screams of OMG!, from juline, and the I just got kicked in the nuts look frm me, the fish sped off into the murky depths, tail sweeping frm side to side as if it was doing a butt shaking taunt action. Ah well, good luck to you puffer. Next time, don't bite on anything that moves: Not everyday u'll encounter a fisher as noob and sway as me.

So it was, a grand total of 2 *so near yet so far* fish.

3. I miss canoeing. We went, though this time it was much shorter than any of my previous trips. Little less than an hour. Not enough, lah... no shiok burning sensation in my arms. You know, that kind of.. arm-shack-until-cannot-lift, finger-weak-until-cannot-open-drink-can kind of burning sensation? Yeah, you got it.

4. Fireflies are very fragile. Beautiful they are, exactly why they should be left in their natural habitats. So they can strut the butts and light their arses. Happily. With all their other happily lighting up brothers and sisters.

5. Mahjong.is.damn.cheem. Too much for my puny x486 vegetable brain.

6. Seafood makes you fat. 2 days of seafood makes you rotund. Good stingray, fresh juicy fish...fingah leeking goood, but still, it makes you rotund. Bad bad.

I feel recharged, relaxed. Good. Calm. Yes, good. Lets see how long this feel good effect lasts.

*edit, add on. Grandfather passed away last night. Not particularly close to him, but yeah...

A little update on life v0.003

2009-04-21T09:10:00.000-07:00

1st draft of the Wacom competition piece. 3 other ideas I have in mind, sketch all out before I decide which one to finalise. Over the next few days, they'll come.

Farm visit on 19 Apr. Unexpected guest appearance frm... Jess. *gasp* We should go out and walk walk more often. Just... dont eat so much next time. hahaha.

Feeling things I shouldn't be feeling. Stick with the decision you've made, idiot; don't falter now.

Agreement with Shahida. Countdown now stands at 358 days. Fighting!!! RAWR!!!

I wonder if I should bitch about work here. Ah well, nope.

April Fooled... long nostalgic walk

2009-04-01T08:50:00.000-07:00

By SGH. The appointment system decided to make fun of me. What happened this morning:

Put down my appointment card at the reception, the nurse picked up my card, looks extremely puzzled, and asks me: "You're seeing Dr Tan. today?" "Yah, missed my last appointment and rescheduled it to today." "But she's been on leave the past week, she'll only be back tomorrow!"

Blahz. Wasted half day of my leave.

And today, after running at Commonwealth, I took a really long walk. Initial plan was to walk to clementi / buona vista and take train home frm there. But upon reaching Buona Vista, as I walked past that underpass from the station to the old housing estate, I stopped and stoned. For a good 10 minutes. Its been... 9 yrs? since the times when I walked through that same underpass everyday on my daily commute. The same underpass I walked.. sometimes alone, sometimes with others, sometimes with someone else. I carried on walking. Through Ghim Moh, past the hawker centre *most of the stalls were closed* while remembering all the good food there *johnson's duck rice, that stall with the crazily delicious chee cheong fun and yam cake, the sugarcane juice, the other stall with the orh jian...*. Past the ex-Mcdonalds where me and TKS used to order the 2 dollar breakfast and sit there all day with McCrispy chicken for lunch *you know, that was one of the few good items they had on the menu. Anyone remember that?* Carried on walking up Mt Sinai Rd, past the gates of the old RJC *slowed down a lot along that stretch... ah memories memories*, past the now totally revamped HPPS, out Holland Road. A good, long 1hr + walk in the night breeze. *Funny how the air was freaking stagnant during my run, yet it was so breezy during my walk. Weirdness.*

I wonder if I shall walk that route again next week. Could even stop by the XO beehoon stall. Hur hur.

The long road to being a full time hentai artist...

2009-03-22T04:55:00.000-07:00

Starts here? donch know... I donch know!!!

WIP, request from Harkem.... not sure if this fits ur requirements but... I had fun. mwahahaha XD

meow?

2009-03-20T22:16:00.000-07:00

I think I should be more, disciplined? Its been quite a while.

Brian McKnight was awesome. A friend had said: Aiyah, brian mcknight's concert.. listen to mp3 can liao lor. Well, I'm glad I stood my ground and went for it. He proved, without a doubt, that there're somethings that can never be replaced with a muttering stutter and jarring special effects. Or stage gimmicks. Or whatever. Nothing beats hearing the man belt it out live, in person. Step over, Jay Chou, the "listen to mp3 can liao" comment, I reserve it for you XD

It was beautiful. Everything from his voice *wasn't expecting less* to the crowd. I've not been to a better concert *then again, i've not been to alot of concerts? lol* and I hope he meant it when he said he loved Singapore, and would love to be back. If he does come back, I'll be there again, I know it. Weeks of skipping lunch to save on the lunch money was worth it. The only regret, if at all, was that he didn't perform the songs I wanted so much to hear. But yah, thats being really picky. Back at One, One Last Cry. Nearly did. Cry.

And thanks for going with me =)

Gone to Detroit Metal City. Came back in one piece, but found one broken supporting beam in my bed. And I thought my weight loss plan was going well, boo hoo.

Ah well.

meh....

2009-03-09T09:03:00.001-07:00

For JW's autograph book. Must admit, I had fun doing it.

Cooking Girl WIP

2009-02-15T01:16:00.001-08:00

Inspiration. Motivation.

2009-01-10T05:10:00.000-08:00

http://conceptart.org/forums/showthread.php?t=144069

Shall keep this, for the times when I need the above.

First post for 2009. weee~~

2009-01-04T04:59:00.000-08:00

On 4 Jan. 4 days into the new yr, and everything seems peaceful. Started cleaning my room, started planning meet-ups with friends, started doing some random sketching *in the process discovering that i've kind of lost it. meh*

Dont' knw about new year resolutions: I've never followed any of my past ones. Always seem to forget them after a while. So this time, instead of a resolution for an entire year, I'll have plans for phases: like, you know a quarterly report of sorts. So a couple of short term goals for the first quarter of 2009:

1. scuba licence. already planning for it with my jie mei.
2. daily sketch of anything. Just so I don't lose it. again.
3. monthly completed work (painting, drawing, whichever)
4. Restart running / workout routine.

Also have a few things I'm keeping in view:

1. work wise, to survive my last mth of probation.
2. and then start preparing/compiling work for portfolio again. Remember that contract runs out in Sept.
3. Keep education plans updated, look out for scholarships and stuff like that.
4. Continue savings plans. restrict spending to <$50 / week. Continue cutting expenses AMAP.
5. Be happy. When all else fails, I have my jie meis and buddies. When even that fails, I have my pet fish.
6. Lose weight. Keep the skin tone. Then I'll finally be tall, dark and handsome. weee~

Well, its a new year. As I said to those who got my new yr sms: Hope 2009 is less of a bitch than 2008. And maybe, just maybe, I may finally clean up my room.

ps: btw, the very interesting thing over at the zupids that I mentioned previously? its up. have a good laugh XD

Mental Sums...

2008-12-30T06:45:00.000-08:00

Heads up, the end of the year is fast approaching and so... its time to start thinking of another resolution for the new year that I'll probably not follow anyway.

Nah. Planning for the future is quite pointless right now. Instead, I shall look back on the past festive season and... do my maths. X-mas is over, and I'm not expecting *and not hoping for* any more surprises in the new yr. So, as it stands now, I've gotten the following as presents (x-mas, bdays, whatever):

1 very colourful PURPLE T-shirt *thanks you ladies and gentleman...*
1 very PINK t-shirt *to the same bunch of people...*
1 black with gold-printed GUYS NIGHT OUT t-shirt *company xmas exchange, don't knw what to say to this really...*
RHS vouchers *tks*
1 revoltech Gurren Lagann *loves it, thanks a lot =)*
1 handphone strap *well...*
1 copy of ImagineFX *omg... never thought I'd get something like this for gift exchange, awesome shit*
1 imitation Liverpool Jersey *oh well... lolz, tks I guess, haha*

Not too bad a haul, some pleasant surprises, some... pretty orz presents, la la.

I've way overspent again. Just did my sums for Oct - December. Including household expenses, I've spent a grand total of approx 4k in 3 mths. Horrible, horrible. I shall have to hibernate, scrimp and save for the next few mths, esp if I do go for the scuba licence.

And I've come to a decision, finally. Yep, enough is enough. Sometimes, hanging in there just makes you look like an even bigger loser. When all else fails, I have my sisters, my sister's mum (LOL, you know who you are), my friends. When even that fails..... I have despair.com to let me laugh it off.

Almost becoming a drama addict. So I guess, not much art update for the time being. There's a niggling suspicion that I might not survive my probation *probably another case of hypersensitive paranoia* but we'll tackle that if it happens. IF.

Lastly, some interesting stuff happening over at the zupids. Link on the right. Actually, we're expecting some interesting stuff to happen that is supposed to have happened already....

A little update on life v0.002

2008-12-07T06:44:00.000-08:00

Test, test. Ok.

Its been about 2 weeks. 2 uneventful weeks. Wouldn't even have realised that 2 weeks had passed, if I didn't bother checking the dates. Anyway...

Collected my first paycheque frm current workplace. December hadn't started, and I've basically spent my December budget. Happy happy joy joy.

27th Nov. My birthday came and went. Got bday smses, facebook msgs, msn msgs. My current colleagues gave me a surprise birthday celebration in the office. Went through the motions. I wonder what their response would have been like if I had told them "I stopped celebrating my birthday 12 yrs ago." Maybe I'll try that next year.

Same day, dinner at NYNY @ AMK Hub. Got a pleasant surprise frm the bunch. I love the shirts (ok the pink one is a bit too big, and needs some getting used to I guess...) but yeah. Love it. Thanks for everything XD

29th Nov. Kbox session + bday celebration. Kind of. Kbox, followed by window shopping for a couple of hours, followed by lunch/dessert session at NYDC. The mudpie was awesome. Wush, pass me the photo of my mudpie please. I want to relive the taste of it. In the process of it all I quietly came to a decision. And, I'd like to say thanks to the organiser. Really appreciate the effort for everything =)

That was followed by my mum's bday celebration, which was utterly... spoilt. Utterly, totally spoilt only because some smart ass decided to ask his friends to come along for a drink and swearing session that was totally unwelcome, decided on all our behalfs to go to a restaurant no one really wants to go to *despite us making plans to go somewhere else*, and force beer down my throat when I wasn't in the mood to drink.

"Eh, you want to drink beer?"
"No..."
"Nevermind just serve him beer."

All the while my mum had this black face that he was totally oblivious to. Overall, a BAD day.

1 Dec. Had a much happier "celebration" at Brussels Sprouts with Donna, Len, Wush and... JIM. Yesh the phantom crawled out of her tomb! Wow, wasn't expecting her to turn up, honestly, but yeah, greatly appreciated. Donna, you look great, so forget the diet plan already. If any guy minds, just tell him to take it or fuck off. And to whom it may concern, we'll find you a nice boy, no worries abt it. Just... find me a nice girl in return. wahahahahah XD

4 Dec. WQ's long awaited wedding. It was really... a night to remember. Its amazing how long they've been together (3300++ days... omg) and even more amazing, how much they're still in love after so long. The wedding itself was beautiful: the lighting was perfect romantic, the food good; the company a blast. As Kenneth says, one of the best he's attended. I totally agree. Now we await the arrival of Audrey/WQ jr. Audrey's husband, get to work already.

I think I should paint something happy to brighten my life up a little. Oh yes, X mas is coming no? Then again, the painting mood has eluded me. Probably gonna take a while to get it back.

Now let me try to get into a festive mood, while I think of what presents to get for people. weee~

A little update on life...

2008-11-23T08:47:00.000-08:00

As the title says. Quite a bit has happened since I last posted. In a nutshell...

1. I started work.

2. I decided to eat in during lunch time. Always. It shall stay that way. Unless I'm asked out.

3. A certain lady asked me out for lunch for reasons that... i found quite strange. She was pretty in a black long sleeved top, but what we talked about... was far from pretty. *lol* Had a long chat, thought of some things while chatting, told her somethings that i wanted to keep to myself, overshot my lunch hour, yadda yadda. Agreed on somethings with her, hope she remembers.

4. Had lunch with my bunneh sistah at this cafe in OG Bugis. Interesting place that, I commented, would be nice for a night date.

5. Was asked to help out with WQ's wedding videos.

6. Attended my cousins' belated wedding dinner, and had a good bonding session with my niece in the process. Yesh, the same niece who whacked my head with a Rubix cube during CNY. Ah well, nvm. She's so adorable I'll forgive her for anything.

7. Company lunch @ Sakuran Orchard.

8. Anime Fest Asia, day 1. Lunch @ Kuishinbo before heading down to the event. Honestly, a bit of a letdown. Was expecting much more, though the Sky Crawlers trailers had me licking my lips. Some of the Gundam dioramas were pretty impressive as well.

9. Anime Fest Asia, day 2. Went to Kino before that and burnt all $100 worth of my Kino vouchers. May'n's concert was a blast. Finally, something happened this month that wasn't a disappointment: she was as good a live performer as I expected, even better. Regret not getting a VIP pass. The seminar by the Studio 4C prj manager *can't remember her name... blehz* was also very enlightening. Its a pity that, to me at least, I don't believe Studio 4C's idealogies can work in profit oriented (and nothing else) SG.

10. Also met that certain lady who asked me out for lunch earlier in the mth. And I noticed that she was wearing the same long sleeved black top she did when she met me for lunch. *yes I notice petty details like that* So we watched May'n together, the bunch of us. For the 2nd time, we watched a concert together. I wonder if she realised that.

The month simply zipped past. So fast, its unreal. There's also this overwhelming desire to detach myself frm everything, everyone. Feels like too much of a chore. Ghosts of the past keep returning to haunt me. One morning, during breakfast, right after the wedding dinner, I had to resist the urge to scream at my mum and brother. Pls, just stop talking about it. You don't know a thing; I do. Don't make it worse for me.

Been playing the new OO opening on loop for the past couple of days. *"Because love always hurt me..." you whispered.* Loving it. Its amazing how you can hide such sad lyrics in such a happening rhythm and beat.

I've way overspent. Now I shall start counting down to payday *whistles~~~*.

Its a little late...

2008-11-02T10:21:00.000-08:00

for Halloween, I know. And its 0230. yawn.

(edited, edited. I think this is complete.)

__________________________________________

Daikon: Pumpkin... thanks for being with me this Halloween...

Pumpkin: Dumbass, do you really think I wanna be stuck here with u?

Project Zoopid, entry 2

2008-10-30T22:55:00.000-07:00

With a new signature. lol.

not really sure what else to do with it so I'll leave it as it is for now.

On to the next card.

30 minute quickie

2008-10-29T21:10:00.000-07:00

As it says. Quick paint while waiting for the liverpool portsmouth game. Random cyborg girl... not sure if I'll be doing anymore to her. Like the way she looks right now. hur hur

Project Zoopid, entry 1

2008-10-29T10:24:00.001-07:00

Today I walked frm Sim Lim Tower to Takashimaya. Again. Wasn't too long ago that I walked the same route actually. So why did I do it again? Well.. came across some rant on theonlinecitizen abt the state of Singapore's iconic shopping paradise (never bought that notion btw.. Orchard to me was just another place I didn't belong to), and so I decided to walk down again and take another look. It was warm, sunny, but best of all, there was a nice breeze all the time. So I strolled. Walked. Took in what I could. At the end of it all, there were several things I noticed:

1. There's a lot of god damned construction going on. All retail space. Do we really have that much money to spend on building retail malls that are only going to makes us spend more of our lesser monies?

2. Its a mess. Probably due to all the construction at the same time, which brings me to the next thing...

3. Why is everything being built at the same time? Is all this construction generating 50k jobs for our expanding-labour-shrinking-market economy? Really?

Its strange. I still don't feel like I belong here, but that feeling is stronger than ever before. I don't wish to recognise this place as the perfect embodiment of the Uniquely Singapore booha; that nothing is uniquely Singaporean. Change for the sake of change. Whatever for? Its not improving anything. I dread. What it'll finally look like when all that construction is over. I'm quite sure I'll like it even even less than I do now.

That said, I have another point to make: I enjoyed the walk itself. Its the stuff along the way thats leaving the sour aftertaste.

Pic above is a concept of a stealth robot type hero character for the Zoopid grp prj. Yesh, finally getting down to it. And yes, lineless defination. The visor lights look kind of whacked, but anyway...

OMG.. words of...

2008-10-28T00:15:00.000-07:00

and yes, I wanted to post this up but I forgot.

and you wonder why Singaporeans are thought to be elitist.

Then again, its probably for the better good of mankind, no?

Time for me to get that degree, before I end up without a mate. LOL.

w00t...

2008-10-27T22:08:00.000-07:00

At long last, that feeling that it could finally be our year, its back. Liverpool's win over Chelsea was as satisfying as beating manure. Well, almost. Early days still, I mean its still only 9 games into the season, but we're unbeatean, looking in great form, look slick going forward, never look like we're going to lose to anyone. Its great. If we're still on top by Xmas we can genuinely believe. Next few games are crucial, so fingers crossed. The title's coming home on the crest of the red tide!! Rawrrrrr~~~

Hitting a slump in my art direction. Can't seem to produce what I have in mind. Yina says, you work faster if you know what you want to do. I do, just that.. I don't knw what tools can get me to the final product. In simple terms, I don't knw how to make my software work for me, or should I say I don't knw how to use my software. Long way to go.

Had a nice chill out session @ Timbre last night. Cool place, pretty good company. As usual someone had to be the butt of our jokes, so sorry Wenqi. mwahahaha. And really, don't have to feel sad for me, what will be will be. If its not meant to be, too bad ;)

Signing contract tomorrow. Hope its the beginning of something good.

And let all money problems go out the window. I will not be responsible for the mistakes of somebody else.

First complete piece since... forever.

2008-10-24T19:38:00.000-07:00

this took way too long. and still tons of bad about it. Linework's not very clean *despite taking forever to *try to* clean up*, not much tonal gradation, blah blah. I'm not even sure if thats a halberd, or a pike/speak/scythe she's wielding. Some weird hybrid I guess.

And I'm still not happy with her boob. It looks... nvm.

Next.

Ouch.. my eyes...

2008-10-21T06:56:00.001-07:00

If the previous piece took too long.. then this took bloody forever. 4 hrs? I think. Reminder to self: don't overpaint and make shit look even muddier shittier. At least this looks like decent skin tone, exluding some patches that still look like dead skin ... but thats besides the point. I like how the eye turned out: eyelashes could be more defined and natural looking, pupil could have more depth.. ah well. 2nd attempt at this tutorial; this is by far the better one.

Now I'll go watch Man Vs Wild.

This is me. I think.

2008-10-20T09:24:00.000-07:00

Alright... this isn't really me. Mouth's too big, for one. And.. I'm not bald. I just don't knw what to do with the hair so... viola.

Random face painting practice. Need to work on speed.. took way too long. 1 hr I think? gah. Now I shall make up for lost sleep.

More....

2008-10-20T03:14:00.001-07:00

I need to work faster. Think less. Hm... make that.. don't think at all.

And I shall hunt down the mosquito(s) that kept me awake till 6 last night. Screw you.

Sunday. Still in a daze.

2008-10-19T03:37:00.000-07:00

The same locations, rendered and put together in some kind of village setting.

Exhilarating football match last night between Wigan and Liverpool. Made me forget things, made me feel alive, gave me some kind of purpose, some kind of inspiration; if only for abt 100 minutes. After that reality kicked in again.

Today is one of the rare occasions when I don't like the rain. Felt like going out and soaking, but still had stuff to finish. By the time I did, the rain had stopped. I missed the chance to walk in the rain. Again.

If I pass the trial, I should be signing. I'll be working again. Doesn't feel like I've had enough of a break but as things stand now, I don't really have a choice. Not having any income, when the rest of the economic world is collapsing around me, seems like a luxury I can no longer afford.

I feel like screaming. K box anyone?

Today = No Good Day

2008-10-17T09:20:00.000-07:00

Theme for the week: Toilet Bowls.

Everyone needs one. They take in all your shit without giving you any, and they don't complain. They don't make ridiculous requests. They don't cheat behind your back. They're always there for you. They know all your dirty secrets. So ladies and gentlemen, please give your wonderful self-sacrificing toilets bowls a little bit of your love, and flush them properly, wipe them with Magiclean and give them a little kiss. They'll love you for it.

Summary of today:

Bad day. Woke up feeling like a testosterone-overdose.

Get stupid news.

Did something hilariously stupid on msn: Like posting a horribly inappropriate link to a girl. Felt like tha dumbest ass on earth.

Did some stuff that turned out looking quite dumb. Yes, the stuff above. Actually some location roughs.

Get some more stupid news. I realise that I will have to pay for someone else's mistakes. Just because.

Reminder to self: never dabble in property even if you have the money. My kids, if ever, might have to pay off my debts.

ps: to the ladies who left me msgs on msn when I was afk, thanks. Love you lots *hugs*

Random....

2008-10-09T01:09:00.000-07:00

Speed painting. Well, it was supposed to be a speed painting... took more than an hour. So remove the speed from that.

Random. Thinking of stuff, and this came out amidst chaotic thoughts of world doom and random strokes on my tablet.

Maybe all I want is a quiet hut without any disturbance.

ps: before you go on your long list of critique... pls bear in mind that this is random. I knw there are a lot of things wrong with this.

Wow, 2 posts in a day!! Am I really that free???

2008-10-02T20:33:00.000-07:00

No updates for a while, so here's making up for it. mwahahahahah XD

It seems that a lot of people in this line, esp. @ management level, have no idea how a production pipeline works. Can lah can lah, no problem, can be done, no sweat.... get a life. Anyone who has prior production experience would knw that it is IMPOSSIBLE to come up with a working game demo (we're not talking pixel style pac man here..), with full 3D, integrated UI and proper coding... in 6 mths. Much less when you don't even have a proper production and programming team. NO PROGRAMMING TEAM. How the hell you're supposed to make the game, I have no idea.

Went volleyball again, on children's day. Yes I knw its supposed to be a bi-monthly thing, but.. things happen you knw. Like people pang seh and fly aeroplane, too lazy to wake up, have to accompany girlfriend blah blah blah... its not my fault, I swear.

Anyway, this time it's with a different bunch of people, namely Elaine's crazy gang. So I became part of the excess baggage, with Juline and YH in tow. Didn't take us too long to realise how out of our depth we are. Well it was fun overall. Better at volleyball than I thought I was *still out of my depth, but still somewhere I guess*. And I guess its easier to let loose when you're surrounded by dudes who are clinically insane and pretty friendly, prima facie. Maybe should pull my sec sch bunch to play with them sometime. Could see some sparks flying... *chuckles*

Relaxed mood, hamstrings feel like overpulled drawstrings, but looking forward to the next volleyball session. Note to self: remember to stretch the next time.

Room's still a mess. I shrug. Someday I will clean up my room. Really.

And here's a nice video link to end off this rant.

Finally done with this... Hurray!! On to the next big thing...

2008-10-02T20:15:00.000-07:00

couple of freelance BGs for Tyler Games ... copyrighted to them of course. 3 frm a batch of 8 that I've been working on since... forever. lol ... procrastination is a sick disease. Next job on the list then =)

Spin me up!

2008-08-14T23:46:00.000-07:00

You are The Wheel of Fortune

Good fortune and happiness but sometimes a species of
intoxication with success

The Wheel of Fortune is all about big things, luck, change, fortune. Almost always good fortune. You are lucky in all things that you do and happy with the things that come to you. Be careful that success does not go to your head however. Sometimes luck can change.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

weee. test link is here

Finally...

2008-08-06T07:37:00.001-07:00

I'm done backing up, burning, removing all the shit in my computer. In the process I realised what a mess I am... tons of programs, weird toolbars, random files blah blah blah in my computer. Really, time to get it together and CLEAN UP THE ROOM. *well I mean clean up my life, but the room's a nice place to start isn't it?*

Random comment from XX today when I mentioned that my room is still in a mess. "Guys rooms should be messy what... if guy's room is clean, then that guy is GHEY." Food for thought there. Maybe, as someone else mentioned long long ago, I just want to be in touch with my feminine side. *lmao*

Time to reformat, and hibernate.

Hmmm...

2008-08-04T20:00:00.000-07:00

九型人格分析
第四型	藝術型、浪漫者、自我型、憑感覺者 16%
第二型	助人者、全愛型、助人型、成就他人者、博愛型 13%
第一型	完美主義者、完美型、改革者、改進型、秩序大使 12%
第五型	智慧型、觀察者、思想型、理性分析者、思考型 12%
第七型	快樂主義型、豐富型、活躍型、創造可能者、享樂型 12%
第八型	領袖型、能力型、挑戰者、保護者、權威型 11%
第六型	忠誠型、忠誠型、尋找安全者、謹慎型 10%
第九型	和平型、和平者、和諧型、維持和諧者 10%
第三型	成就者、事業型、成就型、實踐型 7%

我的九型人格分析？

hmm .... not quite what I expected but seems quite accurate...

test can be taken here: http://tungisland.googlepages.com/article060.html

My first time...

2008-07-27T07:20:00.001-07:00

In Sentosa on a saturday morning, playing beach volleyball. Yes I played beach volley. Not played volleyball since my secondary school days, and never played it on a beach (yes I have no life). But yeah, now IS the time for me to try things anew I guess. Great fun, good day out in the not-so-sunny sunshine, and had some eye candy to go with it. Not bad for a morning outing.

Body feels shagged *should really step up the excercise regime*, but I feel really refreshed. Hope this is the springboard for me to get on with life. Try more, do more, work more, feel more. While I still have the time and energy.

Preparing computer for reformat. I might disappear for awhile *like, log in less msn* after this, might not. We'll see.

Looking forward to more happy weekends. LOL.

This...

2008-07-24T09:20:00.000-07:00

is gonna be a long post, because... well its just gonna be.

Today I added to my collection of "Gundam Models still stuck in their boxes". Latest additions to the family, I welcome you. I SHOULD get down to building them and the other guys who are still in bits and pieces in their boxes. Hur hur.

Had lunch with 2 of my "sistahs" today. Pretty good, though topics I weren't expecting sprung up. I was asked a question I didn't really want to answer; at this point in time I don't know the answer to that particular question. I might find the answer tomorrow, next year, who knows. Maybe I'm subconciously hanging on; maybe I'm subconciously waiting for better options. Maybe it just is. I wonder; I hope I'll see soon enough.

Kind of funny, now that I think of it, that I meet the same person twice in the same day, but it happened. LOL. Anyway, due to an unexpected chain of events, I was asked to a play that I had not planned to attend, by one of the "sistahs" I met for lunch. So there I was, at Sunshine Plaza, chugging 2 huge boxes home, and 5 hrs later I'm back at the same area. Troublesome shit travelling from Jurong to Bugis to Jurong and back again. But.. was well worth the trouble; the performance far exceeded my expectations (well maybe I wasn't expecting anything in the first place, but nvm): Not had such good entertainment for a while, not had such a good laugh for a while. Eye candy aplenty too.

Now I'm on the look out for a sort of girlfriend. Sort of *chuckles*

And then ... this song's been stuck in my head, My Love Will Get You Home by Christine Glass. Lyrics slightly modified.

If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Girl, my love will get you home.

If the bright lights blinds your eyes, my love will get you home.
If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Girl, my love will get you home.

If you ever feel ashamed, my love will get you home.
When there's only you to blame, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Girl, my love will get you home,
Girl, my love will get you home.

I'm loving this song. Probably will be for quite a while. Maybe I shall dedicate it in advance, to whoever this girl might be.

Weird things I see...

2008-07-17T22:54:00.000-07:00

What do you see when you combine the 3rd Angel frm Eva with Pinochio?

Imagine yourself in this room. Wide window, with the blinds drawn on your left. Whiteboard at one end. Empty space where the meeting table should have been. You're in the room, but not in the room; feels like you're some sort of security camera, with a worm's eye view of the room. It is dim, very dim... probably night time, with the lights off and the blinds drawn. The silhouettes of whatever is in the room can barely be made out. Teeth chatters; it is freezing cold, like you're in a cold room rather than a meeting room.

The door creaks open. Or you THINK it creaks open, as no sound is heard, as the door opens. Slowly. Slowly. No light pours in as the door opens; not quite what you expected. So the lights outside this room are off as well, you think to yourself. While you lost focus, the door opens fully. Took it long enough though.. then out of the corner of your eye, something moves. Slight, slight movement. Something touching the floor. A foot. Followed by another. Someone is walking into the room, and strangely, you only KNOW its someone; you can barely make out a silhouette that looks human, slowly walking into the room. The figure walks around the room. Slowly. All the while keeping his *assume to be a male* head down so you cannot make out his facial features. You notice that he looks strange; even though you can't make out details, you see little protrusions from his face; as if you were looking at a cactus. Other than that, you notice somethings else, as the figure slowly paces around the room. He has very long feet; he seems to have wrapped his arms in his sleeves across his chest; he's hunchbacked, or at least, walking with a hunch; he walks in an exaggerated wavy motion, almost like a cartoon character; he SEEMS to be bald, as light gleams off the top of his head.

You do not move from your position, or at least, you keep the same point of observation. After what seems like hours, the figure finally stops pacing around the room. You see him looking around the room a bit, and then, he arches back and stretches himself. His arms stretch out, exposing themselves from his sleeves, and now you see it; he has little fine protrusions along the length of his arms. Like the ones you saw previously on his face. What are those? Spikes? Nails?

And then his hands unclench, his fingers stretch out as well. Just like his feet, his fingers are unnaturally long. And sharp. And pointed. Like claws or hooks. He arches his back some more, and now you see it. His face. Yes. His spikey face. Set on a face thats porcelain white and seems made of ceramic. Black unbalanced, deep-set orbs of black that, perhaps, are his eyes. His nose, or what seems like his nose, splits his face vertically in 2. Sharp cheek bones, sharp protruding chin. No visible mouth.

He stops in mid pose, as if frozen. Or maybe, just maybe, he finally realises he's being watched. His head tilts, slowly, in your direction. Your eyes meet. Or rather, your eyes and his deep-set, jet black orbs on his face that you thought were his eyes. They start gleaming with a deep, violetish glow.

And in an instant, he's upon you. Right up to your face. Looking at you intensely. He reaches for his arm, for one of the protrusions on his arm, and pulls it out. Some liquid you assume to be blood squirts out. He holds the object between his fingers, and raises it to your face. You now see what it is that covers his arms and face: Long J hooks. He circles it round, and round, and round. And then you hear him speak. Or you think you hear him speak, as he has no mouth to speak of, or speak from. What you hear, the voice that breaks this chilling silence, is a deep, guttural, almost robotically monotone voice.

He asks: Would you like some of these too? His blood still drips off the hook.

***

I asked: What do you see when you combine the 3rd Angel frm Eva with Pinochio? I have the answer now, and I've seen him 2 nights in a row. Add to the previous string of weird dream's I've had over the past week, all of them set in my former workplace.

I love the night.

Of Sea Perches and Daikon Cream

2008-06-09T18:19:00.000-07:00

I object. Violently. None of my brothers should be subjected to such torture. Miso Sea Perch with Daikon Cream. Ground, grated, mashed, blended... for cream!?!?! I can't even begin to imagine the pain they went through as they were heartlessly dumped into the blenders. I mourn your deaths, my beloved brethren. I shall observe a lifetime of EMO in remembrance XD

lolz. Dinner @ TCC was a blast. Haven't laughed so hard in a while, was really great fun. Sorry for making the ladies wait though (wush and jingwen, gomen~). Should have taken more pictures of the food, looked pretty gorgeous. Check out their spanking new menu if you haven't.

The dreams continue, and still not getting sleep. Its becoming a luxury item together with petrol and rice. Ah well, screw it.

I really should start painting this stuff. Actually, I love these guys. I'll probably develop them further. lol. Maybe. Perhaps, when I get out of Procrastination Lane.

May tomorrow be wonderful too, as it says, in this lullaby for you =)

I now belong to...

2008-06-02T13:19:00.000-07:00

A select grp of people who are sitting in front of their monitor, blogging, at 0420 hrs in the morning.

Caffeine high? Maybe. I did have 6 cups of coffee today. So, I'm awake, but without the high. So its caffeine-induced-insomnia-minus-the-high. Maybe.

Too many things on my mind? Maybe. I'm thinking about a lot of things, without thinking of anything at all. Random thoughts racing all over the place. Almost like the scenes out of Speed Racer; a lot of movement, a huge blur of blinding fuschia and pink neon, sparks and explosions, then nothing left, but a sickening sense of WTF.

Maybe, I'm actually afraid to fall asleep. Afraid of what, who I might see once I close my eyes. Dreams that I've long forgotten are returning. Dreams I don't want to remember are repeating. I hear the same voice, the same voice from 8 years ago, saying: "Its me, don't you recognise me anymore?" This dream, I started having about 2 months ago, when I came across this girl at The Central who looked almost exactly like her. On and off, off and on. Now its back. I wonder when its going away.

No solace at home; no respite from work.

And I'm afraid to dream.

This is me???

2008-05-26T10:20:00.001-07:00

I am loving this dude right now... hahahaha. Feels so much like me, its uncanny. Kind of sad, though, that I'm more like a plant than human? *chuckles*

Loosely inspired by the Dai-Gurren-dan's logo from Gurren Lagann. Never mind if you don't know what I'm babbling about =)

Weee... this blog's been de-flowered!!!

2008-05-25T09:59:00.000-07:00

Alright, first post. Its about time I started getting down to work again. Get back in the mood for drawing, then CG. We'll c if I get to that, lol.

First one's a supposed bday present *very late, and I lost the original so this is another version*, the 2nd one's a theme that ended up quite random. Shrugz.

Had a bad argument with a close friend the other day; jumped to conclusions and doubted her when I shouldn't have. If you're reading this, I'm really sorry it happened... I didn't mean to doubt you.

Today is the 26 May 08.